`THE *glass* within

Wednesday, June 07, 2006

i miss my godma..

i want to feel loved by my real mum once more in my life..

its been 9 years..

i want my 'mama'...

i want to do housework with her..

i want to go to the market with her..

i want to listen to xiao hu dui with her..

i want to go to the hospital with her..

i want to hold her hand to sleep like i did every night..

i want to stay with her...

why did she have to leave me alone in this world so earli...

i miss my godpa...

he's loves God..

my cheong mummy dislikes God..

my cheong mummy pulls me away from my godpa...

i want to sleep beside my godpa again..

i want to go to church with him..

i want to visit my godma at the church with him..

i want my godpa to drive me and godma to ang mo kio central and buy me a stuffed toy again..

my first stuffed toy..

i want to buy toys together with my sisters...i dunwan my sisters' old toys or the no money excuse like you always gave me

i want to study...i dunwan to do housework all the time like you instructed me to..

i want to go to cedar girls school..i dunwan chung cheng like you insisted me to go..

i want to be with my own friends...i dunwan you to speak badly of them like you always do..

i want to go to the JC i like..i dunwan you to control this once again..

i want to study animal science overseas...i dunwan to only study in NUS psychology like you want me to..

i want to be a wildlife conservationist..i dunwan to be an office girl like you want me to..

i want to go to australia...i dunwan to stay here like you want me to..

i want to find my godma..i dunwan to live on this way...

i want my godma..

and i miss my past..

i am a glass filled ~~with water till its brim~~